Do you Believe?

Before you read the following I have always been a believer in Jesus Christ. I wasn't speaking of Christ and I am reading more and if I would have opened the bible before you wouldn't have believed me. I also must convey to you, this is not about me. This is only about Jesus Christ. All Poems Written Approx 4 years ago and current photos are from this year end of May 2019

Do you believe? how many times in your life something bad has happened to you and you place blame on God? I want to convey to you I wake up every morning and feel I need to start over again. Yes, some would laugh and maybe think of Ground Hog Day where Bill Murray wakes up the same time each day and his alarm clock is playing the same song! I wake up and think " A new day to begin, to start all over again."

What I am about to reveal to you is the truth. A Whispering Angel did come to me unseen and told me. I named An Angel.

An Angel

Wings of beauty a touch of silk opened them up filled with grace laid down beside me and woke me up. A new day to begin to start all over again.

A tear fell from my eye, A whispering angel wiped it dry. Feathers of silk, a tender soul to watch over me and guide me through. God has given you love, believe as I am here whispering to you and wiping your tear, your battles do not fear as he will take them and hold you near. God loves you she whispered in my ear.

As I have stated prior I didn't open the bible and read it, I am in the belief that if I would have this message wouldn't be believed.

Matthew 10:27 Jesus says 27 What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs. 28 Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. 30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

Proclaim from the roofs. 

My Actual Balcony is on a Roof. Correction I moved here in Aug 2018

May 2019 There was a tree with many branches cut to bring sunshine through. Reason warmth for a purpose. Let the light in. The branches of course are big and small and made of Wood. (Carpenter) Cut the tree for Light. Light of the Holy Spirit to show you he is near. I am here.  Several day later in the dark Jesus image appeared.  I must first show you the poem Unseen. Written before I opened the bible.

Unseen
A man in a distance left her and unseen left her heart and soul crazy as it seems. Not understanding held captive in her heart – then left she cried and screamed, where would she go now for the comfort of the one unseen? Confusion and sadness fell upon her soul, she doesn’t understand. She looked in the distance and didn’t see him standing there, the unseen. Moonbeams and lighting she began to cry grieving from her heart weeping aloud somber cry. She looked out her window for the one unseen, she wrapped herself up with warmth and comfort a soul frozen in time. Come back! Come back! she thought and cried she doesn’t understand this love of this kind. Feelings overwhelmingly took over her soul for the one unseen, she grieved alone. I actually grieved at the time of writing Unseen.

1. Tree ( See Matthew 12:30 - 37) and Tree cut for the Light to come through.
2. The Light of the world / Light. (this month May 2019, reason tree was cut, men came to cut tree to heat a pool) Angel Poem # 7 below to a person with the 1st letter "A" in there name.  4 Years prior we spoke about a pool and there is a huge impact of Jesus Christ message.  Hopefully "A" will now understand the true message of what actually took place and others will also open there hearts for the spirit of our Lord.
3. Jesus Christ now seen and not unseen any longer.
4. The heart is dimming.

During the process of cutting this tree down for many days the image appeared.  (See Photos Below) This is the tree that was cut. It had large branches and small ones. There isn't any science behind how the tree was cut, cutting this tree was done in no particular order.  

Jesus Christ not unseen. First photo is partial image of his Jesus Christ Face, the second photo taken is full face an image of Jesus.  I do have a witness.  Matthew 10:27 Jesus says, 27 What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight;  

Please feel free to click on any photo to enlarge.

1st photo partial face

2nd photo full face of Jesus.

Couple days later sitting outside looking at the same view I looked across the street and there is a heart with a stake in the heart and small light.

Why is the above photo have any significance? About a year ago  I sat upon a large stone and there was many smaller stones like rubble and I picked up a heart shape stone that matches the heart in the above photo and in anger one day because of being tortured I walked outside of my backdoor at my apartment building and placed the heart shaped stone right outside the right side of the door on this little patch of grass with dirt. A couple of days later the stone was gone.  I would hope whomever has taken that heart shape stone would please bring it back to me I must place that heart shaped stone up to the trees to be a witness that it matches. I need to share with everyone.

Several signs prior from 4 years ago, I will explain.  I will not give the parties full names. I hope and pray for them  and "That all hear this message of our Lord"

1. Several years ago I worked with a diverse set of people, during that time I was in a position of being in a state of sadness and I was never able to achieve anything of importance, felt put down and played. A male told me at this place  I was told no matter what I did at this place It wasn't going to be good enough.
2.  Defeated before it even began, so they thought...
3. While working at this place things began to happen spiritually to me.
4. I would say and do actions that some would tend to believe strange and disbelieve my person. I was even made out to be very evil.
5. I started to write and the purpose of the writing was with the help of  our Lord. The Lord uses people and if you wait and listen you will hear his message, I believe 100% truth of our Lord Jesus Christ timing. Now is the time.
6. While writing, I was not a bible reader and the message was not to open the bible I would go somewhere and I would hear "she's doesn't read the bible she doesn't believe in Jesus" If I would have opened the bible you wouldn't have believed me. 
7. The angel came to me and told me God Loves Me and A new day to begin again. When prior of speaking to A, we talked about a pool. (See above about Light)   I then needed to relay what the Angel said to a certain person with the first name with initial "A"  I had to convince W and W was hesitant to go tell A, go tell A the following - "A new day to begin to start all over again. W did go tell "A". I must tell you by doing this cause so much trouble. There was a purpose and that is the message I am trying to tell you today. Before opening the bible, an Angel Whispered to me. See Poem Below referenced as Ref #7

From the bible it states

Matthew 10:27 what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs."

Also, Matthew 14 & 15 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Jesus used "A" that day. Hopefully he now can start all over again in the glory of out Lord Jesus Christ your loving Father who loves you and you are verified proof of a spirit of our Lord and a witness of this day. This is about Jesus, not of a living man, he controls and the heart is dimmed and your heart needs light. Open your heart and hear his message.

I hope everyone sees the heart in the above photo and that it has become a small light. What happens when it's all gone? Darkness. This message is for everyone, What is happening to your heart & spirit? without heart you have nothing when it comes to Jesus Christ your heart is empty and your spirit is empty. Do you see? Hear his message?

8. Book Binder - (Not to open the bible) Pages laid openly words written, unspoken Leathered and stitched, bound her eye's shed with tears. Gods spoken words  they did not hear, She laid upon his feet and feared Gods upon us.

At that very time and place 4 years ago some people didn't hear the message and the Lord Jesus Christ wanted it that way. I didn't open the bible and now I have, because of his purpose of the truth. "See I am here do you see? I gave this women a message to give to you." How sad was I as you walked by I waited to hear your words. They didn't come. I was a song and yet you didn't sing. I wanted to dance with you and you turned me away. I love so strong.  Do you not love me? This lady didn't open the bible I gave her words and you did not hear them. I give you. See Poem below Ref# 9 Compassion

9. Without you "D" this would not been possible. I will tell you, you are the beacon. BEACON: A fire, light set up in a high or prominent position as a warning, signal or celebration. Jesus Christ used you for the benefit of many.

10. The body of Christ. Fine Wine.  Fill yourselves. Fine wine for dinning, the aroma of a soul. Sweet, Juicy, Wet, Swallow me. Taste the sweetness, taste me, drink me up. Feel the body and feel me with your love, fine wine for dinning.  Jesus Christ is not bitter.  Is your spirit bitter? is your hearts bitter? See Poem below Ref #10

Ref# 7. The Angel: Wings of beauty a touch of silk opened them up filled with grace laid down beside me and woke me up. A new day to begin to start all over again. A tear fell from my eye, A whispering angel wiped it dry. Feathers of silk, a tender soul to watch over me and guide me through. God has given you love, believe as I am here whispering to you and wiping your tear, your battles do not fear as he will take them and hold you near. God loves you she whispered in my ear.

Ref# 8. Book Binder. Pages laid openly words written, unspoken Leathered and stitched, bound her eye's shed with tears. Gods spoken words they did not hear, She laid upon his feet and feared Gods upon us.

Ref# 9 Compassion How sad was I as you walked by I waited to hear your words, they'd grabbed my heart whispering a passionate kiss, a lovers dance, a song yet to be sung, a compassionate hug, a love so strong. You filled my heart with your magical words casting a spell with my devotion. I opened my heart with loving compassion. 

Ref# 10 Fine wine for dinning, the aroma of a soul. Sweet, Juicy, Wet, Swallow me. Taste the sweetness, taste me, drink me up. Feel the body and feel me with your love, fine wine for dinning

Matthew 12:30-37 New International Version (NIV)

30 “Whoever is not with me is against me, and whoever does not gather with me scatters. 31 And so I tell you, every kind of sin and slander can be forgiven, but blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven. 32 Anyone who speaks a word against the Son of Man will be forgiven, but anyone who speaks against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven, either in this age or in the age to come.

33 “Make a tree good and its fruit will be good, or make a tree bad and its fruit will be bad, for a tree is recognized by its fruit. 34 You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of. 35 A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. 36 But I tell you that everyone will have to give account on the day of judgment for every empty word they have spoken. 37 For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.”

Luke 6:17-26 New International Version (NIV)

Blessings and Woes

17 He went down with them and stood on a level place. A large crowd of his disciples was there and a great number of people from all over Judea, from Jerusalem, and from the coastal region around Tyre and Sidon, 18 who had come to hear him and to be healed of their diseases. Those troubled by impure spirits were cured, 19 and the people all tried to touch him, because power was coming from him and healing them all.

20 Looking at his disciples, he said:

“Blessed are you who are poor,
    for yours is the kingdom of God.
21 Blessed are you who hunger now,
    for you will be satisfied.
Blessed are you who weep now,
    for you will laugh.
22 Blessed are you when people hate you,
    when they exclude you and insult you
    and reject your name as evil,
        because of the Son of Man.

23 “Rejoice in that day and leap for joy, because great is your reward in heaven. For that is how their ancestors treated the prophets.

24 “But woe to you who are rich,
    for you have already received your comfort.
25 Woe to you who are well fed now,
    for you will go hungry.
Woe to you who laugh now,
    for you will mourn and weep.
26 Woe to you when everyone speaks well of you, for that is how their ancestors treated the false prophets.

My prayer to all of you, 

I wish you love, and the spirit of our Lord opens your hearts and your spirit is filled with his light and love.  
May God Bless You and Peace Be with You.

If you see the time stamped on this blog 711 that has no significance. Just happened to be a coincidence. I know that some people might get freaked out or you believe in the miracles with relating to numbers.  Please do not take this message that I have shared with you in any negative way. Jesus Christ loves you and is waiting for you.

Forgiveness

I met a cereal killer this day.

As I drove to the nursing home and while listening to Queen song playing on the radio "Another one bites the dust" and I thought to myself would she be awake? What kind of setting would there be for a women you've known for most of your life who is now dieing of brain cancer, walking into a place that you know is for the dieing, the fresh clean smell and smell death, a cocktail mixture of sorts, ya know the many of cocktails that make you vomit after you had to many, the loss of hair, the dry mouth, the skin color change, the weight loss that you've tried several diets that never worked and now wa-la you've lost that 35 pounds! The baggage just melted off without even trying, what am I to do now with my now fined cocktailed body of chemicals?  The party of the hangover that lasted for years, hell I beat it once, i can do it again!!!!!  You lived your whole life to die to have a hangover of that cocktail of Cancer and life!  Fair, not fair, what the hell is fair anyways?

I turned off my car and the sun was shinning and a warm breeze moved over the green grass that hadn't been cut and the affect of the soft wind that went from lite light green to a deeper green rolling across the grass and the dirt underneath obeying nature.

I started to get nervous as I walked up to the two sided class doors of La Rays Nursing Home and got that sick feeling of what would be right around the corner and as I walked up to the help desk Could you please give me Roses room #?  Thank You.

Now for the one on one time with a women I loved half my life who is now dieing of brain cancer, things weren't quite the same as I believe weather came and a cloud of gray lingered for years.  When you love someone who is dieing and you just want to say the right words and you cannot understand why the people around you don't understand me saying she was the strongest women I knew and then belittle me for saying so with the never ending gray cloud that kept on keeping on.  What do you do? Well you keep keeping on, you overlook the over lock keepers and to be brave for the one your about to have the one on one talk with before Jesus calls you to home.

Dieing of Brain Cancer that traveled the universe from your breast to your brain without any gas stops, never ending traveler you might say that has taken miles of miles of the longest roads ever known to mankind. This time the traveler didn't even have to get directions, there was only one direction from one destination to destination straight away, there wasn't any weaves, hills just downhill ride. 

Hello Rose how are you feeling, no response, can i get you anything? what kind of flowers are those? they are really beautiful, "those are Azaleas" I am looking around the room and the cleaned laundered scent of a room with a person who I no longer know.  I love you Rose and I kissed her hand and sat quietly. Not many words.

Knock Knock breakfast time as a female came in to the room to give Rose her breakfast, dried rice crispy cereal?!. No Milk? Nope! How the hell am I going to feed her dried rice krispy cereal? I tell the female my dad is not going to like this. How do you feed a person with dry mouth spoonfuls of dried rice krispy cereal? You don't! They don't eat breakfast. Cruel?  Miss smarty pants that just left the room couldn't have given a shit! Where was the compassion on Rose dieing? There wasn't any from what I just had witnessed, why are people so cruel to the ones we love? Why do we have to watch our loved ones suffer and also have a cloud of cruelty? I met a cereal killer that day.  Fair, not fair, what the hell is fair anyways?

How do you cope with cruelty, grieving and a wide range of emotions when you cannot understand why another human being is not so human after all! Forgiveness? yeah right ok what ever the hell you say! Everything is a standstill, what in the heavens just happened? What is wrong here? Where did kindness, compassion and love for one another go?  This is one of the stressor you get when gaslighting happens, mis-information that did occur even on a death bed. 

Jesus Christ is all merciful and in his time will give you what you need as he gave to me to share with all of you.  As I had written prior that I didn't open the bible before my poems were written I leave you with this poem and My step mother is buried on Grant Ave laid to rest next to my father and hasn't had grass on her grave in 9 years, only Ant hills. Forgiving Cruelty or what ever you might be going through,  As you look to forgive, ask Jesus Christ to Bestow Forgiveness so you can bestow forgiveness to one another.  Im still trying.

Psalm 103:3 King James Version (KJV) to read the entire Psalm scroll down. 

3 Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;
Click Here to read King James Version (KJV) on Forgive

Forgiveness

Forgiveness she tried to but failed.

Let me out of this bitterness this coldness bestow upon her - yet by another.

She sat their and pondered would the love in her heart be enough to sustain her.

Forgiveness she cried, I wanted. Not able to forgive one another- yet bestowed by another.

God grant me forgiveness So I can bestow another.

Psalm 103 King James Version (KJV)

103 Bless the Lord, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.

2 Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:

3 Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;

4 Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;

5 Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's.

6 The Lord executeth righteousness and judgment for all that are oppressed.

7 He made known his ways unto Moses, his acts unto the children of Israel.

8 The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy.

9 He will not always chide: neither will he keep his anger for ever.

10 He hath not dealt with us after our sins; nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.

11 For as the heaven is high above the earth, so great is his mercy toward them that fear him.

12 As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.

13 Like as a father pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth them that fear him.

14 For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.

15 As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth.

16 For the wind passeth over it, and it is gone; and the place thereof shall know it no more.

17 But the mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting upon them that fear him, and his righteousness unto children's children;

18 To such as keep his covenant, and to those that remember his commandments to do them.

19 The Lord hath prepared his throne in the heavens; and his kingdom ruleth over all.

20 Bless the Lord, ye his angels, that excel in strength, that do his commandments, hearkening unto the voice of his word.

21 Bless ye the Lord, all ye his hosts; ye ministers of his, that do his pleasure.

22 Bless the Lord, all his works in all places of his dominion: bless the Lord, O my soul.