Tuesday, January 22, 2019

Diversity & Acceptance The Bible

Diversity & Acceptance
I had written poems before opening the bible.   100% I know that Jesus works in ways to teach each and every one of us, without a doubt the Lord placing people throughout my life this wouldn't be possible.  

It will be very hard for some people to understand, even after being tortured but,  I will forever love you.


People hate and science can also hate and I still find it very difficult how human beings can destroy human beings and want them to suffer. I haven't been able to fully forgive evil, evil caused torture and post traumatic stress,  Not Jesus Christ.
That tiny birds heart can be so easily crushed. Evil crushes innocence. 

I had written Book Binder before I opened the bible. The best way I can explain why this poem, You have people who are at one level and your at a different level. Diversity = Acceptance (not in the context of Race) but in acceptance in meaning the bible and what the words are written in reference to not being able to open the bible before Book Binder was written (Diversity not opening the bible) (Acceptance opening the bible.) 

Diversity, tortured, look at that women how she is acting, look at the disbeliever, she doesn't open the bible, shes not blessed, I don't believe her. Her action show otherwise, whore, slut, horrible mother, child abuser, jezebel, sex addict. she doesn't know what she's doing, faker! 
Not hearing (listening) Listening of how you portray or spin the narrative.  His timing, not yours


Acceptance, Purpose, Reason, Believer, Truth, Faith, Reading the bible. His timing. Now is the time! 


A Collection of little but of a lot!   Would you openly in a room full of strangers say you actually love Jesus, would you?  I was physically harmed on my feet when I would say the Lords prayer and say Lord I am not worthy to touch your feet. True I was tortured.


I LOVE JESUS.  He gave me the words to Book Binder before I opened the bible, do you hear him?  I have more poems that I want to share with you. Written before I opened the bible. Do you have faith?


Science did not help with this Poem!!!
The poem is NOT science, I will get to the Science project later. The torture program that Zaps you when you say the Lords Prayer. Evil human beings do that. Poems where written before the knob was turned up to give me pain. Words = His Truth.

I am going to be 55 this year and if this takes me to the rest of my life, I will not be defeated in telling you his (our Lord) word. Now is the time. You have stifled me long enough and no longer will be able to! The 99 to 1 rule already has started, to count backwards. The 99 to 1 rule in my world means; I will be 1 in a room filled with people and my faith will not be taken. I would rather see 99 standing with me. His timing is now (will be.)


Please say a prayer for me not to conform into harm of people that I am surrounded by people to lift the Lords word into my heart and spirit and as I am a human being sinner; my actions show negative actions towards others and that it may be taken from me. Fill my spirit with compassion, love and endurance. I am a sinner Lord. Amen.




Book Binder


Pages laid openly
words written, unspoken
Leathered and stitched,
bound her eye's shed with tears.
Gods spoken words they did not hear,
She laid upon his feet and feared

Gods upon us.

Collection/Flashlights Allowed ©2015

Isaiah 35:5 Easy-to-Read Version (ERV)

Then the eyes of the blind will be opened so that they can see, and the ears of the deaf will be opened so that they can hear.

Isaiah 29:18 Easy-to-Read Version (ERV)

18 The deaf will hear the words in the book. The blind will see through the darkness and fog.



Behold, I come quickly: blessed is he that keepeth the sayings of the prophecy of this book.



The lord led me to James (Faith without works cannot be called faith. Faith without works is dead (2:26) and a dead faith is WORSE than no faith at all. 


James 2:26 King James Version (KJV)

26 For as the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also.

22 But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.
23 For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass:
24 For he beholdeth himself, and goeth his way, and straightway forgetteth what manner of man he was.
25 But whoso looketh into the perfect law of liberty, and continueth therein, he being not a forgetful hearer, but a doer of the work, this man shall be blessed in his deed.
26 If any man among you seem to be religious, and bridleth not his tongue, but deceiveth his own heart, this man's religion is vain.
27 Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.

Sunday, January 20, 2019

Salvation


EVIL CAME TO VISIT AND KNOCKED AT AT MY DOOR AND WHILE EVIL CAME TO VISIT WHAT JESUS CHRIST PREPARED FOR ME WHEN I WAS 12 TO SHOW THE WORLD THE PROFOUND WISDOM TO WRITE OF OUR LORD.  

People and scholars will still call me a liar, to those people who will continue to discredit me I can only tell you the truth of what was shown to me at 12 and all this was in his timing.  I would say to you,  if I'd open the bible before the words written you wouldn't have believed and now I have opened the bible as validation 43 years later and you still might not believe me.  I have been mocked made fun of and everything in between, tortured. I AM A SINNER.  To science who burned me on my religious symbol you still have time to get it right and ask for salvation.  He is waiting.

For the non believers, My question to anyone, Who are you not to think that if I as a human being and the word(s) that come from our Lord isn't true? Because of? What agenda do you have against Jesus Christ? I was forced fed don't say it that way, or word it another way, or you as the person reading that you went to bible classes and church or you studied and this cannot be true! but it IS!  Are you really the higher power of what our Lord can do? Have you opened the door to have evil stay and shut that door against Jesus Christ? I am a servant and a sinner. I make no excuses and have no sinister motives. I was murdered, poisoned and given a slow death by humans. What are you afraid of? To twist turn and make unjust against Jesus Christ? I understand the world is a big place and human beings have shut the door against him, he showed me. 

My blog is NOT to try to convince you but to honor our Lord and Savior and he came to visit.  Jesus Christ saved me from opening that door when I was 12 and I wasn't damned for life, my salvation and saved. The Lord led me to Psalm 25.  I never read Psalm 25 before until this very moment January 20, 2019 10:57 AM. 

Psalm 25 Psalm 25 King James Version (KJV)  (A Psalm of David)

25 Unto thee, O Lord, do I lift up my soul.
2 O my God, I trust in thee: let me not be ashamed, let not mine enemies triumph over me.
Yea, let none that wait on thee be ashamed: let them be ashamed which transgress without cause.
Shew me thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths.
Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day.
Remember, O Lord, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindnesses; for they have been ever of old.
Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions: according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness' sake, O Lord.
Good and upright is the Lord: therefore will he teach sinners in the way.
The meek will he guide in judgment: and the meek will he teach his way.
10 All the paths of the Lord are mercy and truth unto such as keep his covenant and his testimonies.
11 For thy name's sake, O Lord, pardon mine iniquity; for it is great.
12 What man is he that feareth the Lord? him shall he teach in the way that he shall choose.
13 His soul shall dwell at ease; and his seed shall inherit the earth.
14 The secret of the Lord is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant.
15 Mine eyes are ever toward the Lord; for he shall pluck my feet out of the net.
16 Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted.
17 The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses.
18 Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins.
19 Consider mine enemies; for they are many; and they hate me with cruel hatred.
20 O keep my soul, and deliver me: let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee.
21 Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait on thee.
22 Redeem Israel, O God, out of all his troubles.







Sunday, January 13, 2019

Love

As I stated prior on my blog I am a servant, a witness. Science and People Hate. Not all Science and People do. Evil is among us and they didn't hear what she said, but as in the Mini Miranda anything you say will be used against you in the true sense of liars, lies, deceit and perversion. Devil says your NOT BLESSED! I SAY YES I AM!  I'm for my Lord Jesus Christ and his Children. Literally! 

This is an attempt to Collect Gather, Assemble,Congregate.


Matthew 5:11 King James Version (KJV)
11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. 

BEFORE YOU READ THE FOLLOWING, IT MAYBE ALARMING TO YOU. MY STATEMENT IS FACTUAL AND TRUE. I HOPE BY POSTING WHAT I’VE GONE THROUGH this WILL SAVE Lives. IF AT ANYTIME YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR LIFE MAYBE IN DANGER NEVER HESITATE TO CALL 911. SEE SOMETHING SAY SOMETHING!
Mis-information Leads to blood, A Women thought I was racist.


THIS IS NOT FICTIONAL!


Name of my statement
(GASLIGHTING A FULL THROTTLE )


October 9, 2018
I am 54 years old the following events have occurred and is in fact and true on this day October 9 2018 I am making a  statement of events not all events but the horrific ones that have truthfully and factually occurred to my person and even infants and family.


April of 1995 a man by the name of Doctor Edwards harmed my infant at birth and mutilated my vagina. At the time of delivery he full force pulled my son out of my vagina with a suction cup and harmed his skull. Once he delivered my baby my vagina was ripped and he had sewn a ball inside the lining of my vagina, he took the inner skin of my vagina and took the thread and bunch together skin and wrapped the thread in such a way it formed a ball in the inner lining part of my vagina. After the delivery and having the ball of skin inside the lining of my vagina, my vagina was the size of a medium cantaloupe. It took six months for the swelling to go down and I had to pack myself with ice for about a month.  A nurse at the time stated to me that she had never seen anything like that and was concerned at the size of my vagina and I was packed with ice. 2 years prior I encounter the same doctor who was doing a pelvic exam and made me bleed. I believe that this man to be a homosexual. Birth happened at Lakewood Hospital in the city of Lakewood in the county of Cuyahoga.


June of 1997
At the time of going into labor I went to a hospital called Greensboro Women's hospital it was the night of the Mike Tyson fight. I was in labor for approximately 10 hours, during that time a nurse would periodically check the stats (monitor) the heartbeat of my baby and at one point when she came into the room I asked her what was the substance that was coming out of my vagina, she examined me it was a brownish blackish color and she said it was normal, approximately 6 hours later a different nurse came in and she immediately notify a doctor, I could see the concern in there faces, I was asking questions is my baby breathing? does my baby have brain damage? The doctor the said to me, (WHAT ARE YOU A DOCTOR?) I was in distress as that nurse who prior examined me knew that my baby was laying in feces inside my womb for over 6 hours. My baby was delivered and indeed was harmed he suffered a punctured lung. He was in the intensive care for a week. I am in the belief that this nurse was homosexual (female)


Years since the following has/had happened and is fact and true. Started in 1999. In the year of 1999 I was gaslighted by my husband Steven. Gaslighting is a tactic in which a person or entity, in order to gain more power, makes a victim question their reality. It works much better than you may think. Anyone is susceptible to gaslighting, and it is a common technique of abusers, dictators, narcissists, and cult leaders. It is done slowly, so the victim doesn't realize how much they've been brainwashed. For example, in the movie Gaslight (1944), a man manipulates his wife to the point where she thinks she is losing her mind.
I in this statement will refer to myself as my person and the meaning will be as follows: a person who has been physically harmed and mentally abused, witnessed abuse, controlled and tortured by the hands of somebody and gaslighted


I witness the following to my person:


My husband in the last 2 years of our marriage did a tactic of coughing, I had estimated 365 days x 2 = 730 days @ 25 coughs per day for a total of coughs of 18,250 that is a low number.  Coughing is a tactic used to control the gastlighted victim, example would be when the victim asked a question the response would be a verbal answer followed by the opposite of what the gaslighter verbally says. How was your work day, fine. follow by one cough to having the meaning no. or two coughs for the yes. This tactic is used to confuse the victim and keep them in a state of guessing. Clearing the throat is also a tactic and leaves the victim in the state of guessing.


The gaslighter will a have conversation with people and throw misinformation in the mix and what you are taken in, is not what is actually what you are comprehending, you are left again filling in the blanks, those blanks that you fill in is a guessing game and the conclusion you take from this is all negative.  It’s like the childhood game (when you sit in a circle and the teacher whisper in the child's ear and then goes through the circle and by the time it gets back to the teacher it is not what what said) Misinformation occurs, but at a sick level in the community.


Other tactic used verbal communication, but actions show the opposite, like a childhood game in school “Opposite day” at this point the victim has been victimized for such a long time they do not catch on, its exhausting for the victims and wears the victims down until they attempt suicide, reinforcing that the victim is crazy.


The gaslighter is always using reinforcement and control, but making it look the total opposite and that he is the victim. The gaslighter has the tactics, while the victim is left in a state of hopelessness, despair and grief, there will be at one point that tactics used to boost the victim up and then tear them down, a hideous cycle of abuse.     He will say something or nonverbal gesture to point out what somebody else is doing, he will place blame on children, family, coworkers, neighbors and use these tactics against the victim, the victim becomes very verbal and at this point what is being said from the victim is causing a high level of horrible verbiage on everyone and anyone as the victim is now under the belief that everyone is against them and her children. No outside source will be able to help as some outside sources have used gaslighting and some aren't. At this point all the negative verbal words said is used on the gaslighted victim to alienate the victims from any family, friends, or even to make new friends. The victim is at this point alone.  During the victimization that is taking place the victim will start saying things like, I'm sorry, what did I do wrong? and turns to the gaslighter for answers and even starts feeling sorry for the gaslighter and begins to defend his actions towards others who the victim is now under control from the gaslighter and believes everyone you are in contact with wants to harm you and your children. More control on the victim. The gaslighter is using full throttle.


Both my infants were harmed at birth 1995 & 1997 (1995 Autism) (1997 continued lung problems throughout my sons life.


The following happened while I was dating/married to Steve while he continued to use the gaslighting technique.


A doctor at Saint Michaels came into the room and injected my hand with some substance, Steve Lee heard me screaming for help while he sat in the waiting area and did nothing. A Nurse stated to him, does she also act like that, I told Steve tell her no Steve. He didn't say anything. I was so traumatized, about a year later I started seeing spots appear in my body. I was in fact poisoned.


My breast were smashed on purpose and deliberate, mammogram done and reading of mammogram by a doctor places the lump in a different location on the diagram. When a mammogram is done and you sometimes have to redo it once or twice to get a good picture that is a normal procedure, when it is done 7 more times where you place your breast with the lump on the machine and is smashed like a pancake that is sadistic.


My anus was prodded by two doctors, an African American male and a Asian,  2 female Muslims checked my vagina.


My vagina was mutilated at the time of birth of my second child. Encounter the same doctor 2 years prior that made me bleed from my vagina.


A doctor by the name of Joseph Baker a homosexual laid me on a table on my stomach and gave me a rubbed down and told me I was tight, he put misinformation on my medical record at Metro Health.


The bones in the upper right back area in my mouth were broken.


Removed out of my home against my will.


I was burned on my left inner arm where my religious tattoo is.


My person Witness child exploitation on my children and other peoples little girls and teenage girls in a a so called professional setting in the mental heath arena.


I was feed dog food by a homosexual who said it was chili.


I on a daily, monthly basis suffered crushing sensation in my skull, pain in my spine, ringing in my ears during the years living with him. Shit blood and continuous stomach pain. All of which is documented by EOB, Explanation of benefits, some of the EOB are fact and true while others are not.


Gaslighting is done so the victim is not believed and made to look crazy. Causing over $300,00 dollars plus in medical cost on my person and her children, the children who were harmed since birth.


The gaslighter never admits that he participates and manipulates everyone he encounters, including law enforcement, teachers, friends, family, his family, or coworkers, his actions on my person were malicious cold and calculating and makes the victim feel helpless. He used this technique on everyone in our community, including children.  A well known incident that happened is an example of what could be the outcome of the gaslighting technique, as in the case of a news reporter Alison Parker and her Cameraman. Gaslighting does occur in the workforce, fact and true. During this time I was homeless and ended up living in an office with the gaslighter (ex husband) again, he didn't stop the mental abuse, example, as I watched Alison Parker's father on a national news station and the grief I had seen on his face and him explaining all the wonderful accomplishments she had accomplished in her short life and such overwhelming grief, I sat and cried. I stood up from the chair I was sitting on and said out loud ‘I could help that father Steve,’ all I have to do is read the letter left of why he shot her and the cameraman, some of the details of that letter came out and I knew the tactics, I said out loud again I could really help that father, I said openly I wish somebody would tell him.  I received one cough to reinforce NO! I sat there and grieved for Alison, the Cameraman and her father. At this point all the parties involved created such sick victimization and left a loving father in such despair. I promised that day I would never forget Alison Parker and made a promise to myself that I if I could, I would help her father anyway I could.


I had again in later years seen a video on YouTube of Alison father and in reference of gun control.  I have my own opinions on that subject matter and as always that is a heated topic, Gun Control. I have a different opinion on Gun Rights and will at this time refrain from Expressing them, I will say one thing educating at a young age would stop workplace crimes or changing the Laws to make Gaslighting a crime and the predators who participate go to jail. A silent crime of horrific nature that goes unnoticed. Sick.


My mother was also a target and suffered,  my mothers vagina was probe without any medication or sedative, my mother stated: "they didn't give me any medication" she said she moaned loudly and it was very painful. Another incident occurred while my mother was at Mary Mount. I received a call and I thought my mother was being murdered, I heard blood curdling screaming and my mother begging me to help her, my mother was in excruciating pain and she was begging me, please help me. I got in my car went to Mary mount Hospital and was told by a nurse that they forgot to give my mother her medication and my mother had a stroke. I took her out of there immediately and placed her with Cleveland Clinic for medical care, she was placed into intensive care and suffered ever since. My mother has since passed away and I was never told and I didn't even get to attend her funeral.  My mothers attorney is a homosexual for her estate. My mother was deceived due to the gaslighting technique, I became estranged from my entire family. I lost all the people I cared about including my father who was also harmed do to gaslighting.


My father served on the USS Roosevelt and was a sailor, towards the end of his life, I watch my father who was a veteran suffer with being doped and some much extra blood thinners, I had seen my father bleed non stop through his nose.  


After my father had passed away, I went to a law office where I spoke to a man who by the way was a Homosexual.


My father's estate/will was at attorney office of Solomon, when I told this man the concerns I had with my fathers estate he brushed me off and treated my person as subhuman, he said in a way of sexual nature, it’s not money that you want, at that point I knew he wasn't going to follow the laws of probate.


Children Suffering do to gaslighting technique used in hospitals even a children's hospital, children do in fact suffer by the hands of the abuser who uses the technique to gaslight the child. Several incident that occurred in the 8 year span, the child is gaslighted due to the lies that the abuser made up stories or even if a wonderful thing a child has accomplished can be turned and used to make the child a predator when the adult gaslighter is the predator.


Several incident I witnessed (MY PERSON)


School System is gaslighted, not all participate, but once the gaslight technique is used full force on a child, its full throttle. Minor playing even on the playground turns a child into a predator, rumors turn into fact when in fact it’s all lies, teachers do bully a child and throughout the child's school years the child self esteems diminishes leaving the child with no one to turn to, once the child is in the system of psychological care the gaslighting doesn't stop, its again full throttle.  The gaslighting technique has caused so much misinformation that a child is not capable of handling and the child might even begin to lie (no fault of their own) When the child is raised in a home and the parent is a huge part of the gaslighting technique and the child isn't fully aware of the abuse that is being done, the child see the abuser as loving, caring and will at some point use the child to help continue the gaslighting and the child ends up sympathizing of the hand of the abuser (Gaslighter) The child has been fully deceived.


Outside forces set up in the community under the radar and law enforcement at one point are deceived because on the outside in the community everything looks hunky dory while behind closed doors of where the child might be going for after school fun is really a place where the gaslighting is occurring.  The reinforces are at work under the radar.


Fact & Truth, the adult opens his home to your child and now your child believes the adult wants to help as he is seeing his own family unit falling apart, the child is lured into believing that this adult man/women want to help. Good intentions you may call that. ITS NOT.  It only separates the family unit more. The abusers are already aware that the family has been gaslighted and at one point help the abuser who is the gaslighter so they use a child anyway they see fit. At this point the offender will say, I made your child obedient, or I want to study philosophy to entice the child to think he is learning something new (Exciting) for the child and the gaslighted parent is now disabled and the gaslighter parent the abuser lets them and doesn't interfere with the new exciting so called philosophy, sounds to important to the child and the child gets enticed.  There are many more techniques used unfortunately and sadly to many to list that my person has witnessed. The outcome as is follows, the gaslighted parent is no longer in anyway shape or form significant in the young child's life, development and doesn't have a say in any type of decision making for their own child. The child is literally taken from the mother. The child, gaslighter parent, gaslighted parent and child/children living in the home and at one point become so dysfunctional the child doesn't want to be there. All the outside after school fun is fun after all. The outside fun has now full control. A technique of brainwashing. The child ideology has been totally change.  The monster parent, the my person is now even seeing her children being separated, sibling being separated, brother to brother no longer and 1 child will be in the hands from an outside source while the other child falls into the hell of Psychological care.


Child enters the realm of Psychological care. At this point the child will endure physical pain and mental abuse. The child is a victim. The child will now try even to commit suicide, once in the care of the gaslighting techniques, all misinformation is solely used. Who doesn't believe a medical record? doctors takes oaths and you are in the belief of what the medical record states is in fact, fact. It isn't. No one is under the belief on a daily basis that a Doctor who takes an oath becomes a doctor to harm any patient, but it occurs. All the prior medical records of misinformation  is used and the child doesn't develop in anyway shape or form. The child has endure physical pain, such as stabbed with needles, not giving the proper medication or even the wrong medication or the misinformation will get someone who is not abuser to commit a act of abuse against the child due to misinformation on a child's medical records, this causes bodily harm on a once loving child who has been thrown into continued non stop mental abuse and physical harm. The parent who is the victim who is trying to save her child/children from the abuse and will be discredited due to the years of the gaslighter who has made the mother look crazy. The mother is not believed and the child in fact will continue to get abused.


Medications will be used that a child will not need, medications used that might even hurt or kill a child. Psychopathic drugs used that a child doesn't need and to change the child into believing they might hurt themselves or someone else. After abuse of gaslighting done on a child since the age of 2 ½ years old the child outcome is not an outcome of a normal life, as now everyone he/she encounters doesn't like him/her, alienation occurs. The child will grow up and be stunted in the growth of an adult male or adult female. The cycle of abuse continues. This affects people lives, family and in communities.  Never ending cycle of abuse. The child has learned unknowingly by the abuser to continue in adulthood. He has learned technique that diminishes not only himself but the community. The damage is severely done deliberate by the hands of a stepfather/and or the gaslighter.


Gaslighting the parent/Parenting Skills in Question.
When the technique is used it not only devastate you as my person, it devastates your parenting skills or lack of, as you are under attack of what you are not doing as a parent or what you should be doing as a parent.
The parent who is on constant attack (call it consuming) loses the ability to parent.


The question to you/anyone who may read my statement, how does gaslighting make you the better parent? Who are you to think that if a parent isn't parenting the way you want them to or you are under the belief the parent is not doing the right parenting? I would challenge the fact that gaslighting is a monster parent and doesn't teach a child to grow into adulthood.  Lies deceit and harm causes more lies deceit, always an angle. Parents I tend to believe have only great/good intentions on wanting their children to contribute to a community, society in general. It was said and I quote “It takes a village” or a school is only good as their community. It is very frightening to see the village or the community on a continual basis commit such monster parenting, wouldn't you agree? How is making a community of making a community a village of idiots helping? now the word used idiots is derogatory some would say I’ll put it better in a non threatening way.  How is dumbing down youth help any society helpful? How does gaslighting on youth (abuse) that stops a person growing up to be a healthy contributor to any village/community to be successful? In plain English it doesn't. My question to you reading this statement is, How many school shooting contribute to a village/community?


Child Abuse Exploitation now takes place on other people's children.
Misinformation leads to adults who are now under the belief you have hurt a child, My person has  witnesses Counselors, Teachers, Psychiatrist, everyday fathers, mothers and several other entities use a child. Even doing an reenactment of a child rape, led off into a park.  How can that be? The my person was at the age of 5, while the surrounding people walking their dog along a pathway or the jogger running and children playing in a park, those people would never understand the action that is being done by a male who is leading the child out into the bushes but the victim has already been consumed/witnessed several to hundreds of other actions that have occurred in those 19 years, at one point when a victim is gaslighted any trauma that the victim has endured in the past will also be used against the victim who has been gaslighted. This is sick victimizing.


My question to you as you read my persons statement, who are the victims now? the little girl led off into a park? the male leading the child into the park?  I would hope that you would be under the belief that all was a victim at this point, I would challenge that any male/female who is not a monster parent would look at the individual who might ask you to place a young child and exploit them in a situation of any sorts of this type of action and would tell them no way in hell! (But as the gaslighted victim, I now tend to believe that in fact, yes some people are fully aware of these types of actions and do exploit young children.) I cannot say for matter of fact if the action that took place that day or know if the male knew of the action being done was victimization. I have witnessed hundreds of sick victimization on children, mothers, fathers and every part of our society.


Victimizing in an office setting with parent/child/children (Psychologist) (Counselor) (Counseling) this time the child/parent/children have been placed in the mental health community. Misinformation is used, such as targeting the parent/teen, here is another incident that had occurred, child is now suppose to be getting help and has been thrown into a Psychological care and the parent who has been gaslighted never once thinks that what might be said in a private setting will be used at a later time to cause a riff between parent and child. STOP, it does.  Techniques are given to the child to make the child look at the parent in a negative way and the parent sole intentions are to get the child help. Techniques used to tell a parent to STOP when they are trying to discipline a child, and at this point nothing will be seen in any constructive way of your parenting skills. There will be this inside connection between the Psychologist, Counselor and child/teen. The abuser will continue the effects such as if the Counselor or Psychologist believes that you might not be listening to your child and have ignored them. The child seeks approval from the parent(s) and their needs. The now mental health administrators will indeed use tactics, such as a factual incident occurred that my person witnessed. Exploitation will now again take place between female teen, male teen, and parent and counselor. The not bright idea of a Male adult who uses teens to exploit the entire parties as is follow:
He is now victimizing the parent and in a session and tells you he has made your child happy in the private session between himself and my person/parent. He placed the teen girl in the waiting area and led the male teen to believe he was getting attention from the young teen girl, pre-planning to teach the gaslighted parent a lesson. Your child is seeking attention, approval and he now made your child happy as stated in the alone session time with the gaslighted disapproved parent. Several verbal and nonverbal psychological actions happened within 1 hour to the gaslighted parent/teen and possibly to the female teen who might of been maybe a family member to the Health Administrator or just another teen placed in the position unknowingly, at this point I would ask the person reading this statement to make an educated guess on the non verbal and verbal action taken place and would come to the only question. Why? Has verbal communication stop in a counselling session? Isn't getting the correct help for the child with open communication helpful any longer?  Here’s why, control. There should never be such a setting where a parent is put in a situation where a man with a psychological degree has such control over my person's or my teen or anyone else teen for that matter, a form of psychological abuse mastered. At this office 2 men were involved. Ed Becker and Doctor Tanveer Hussain. I was married at this time.


While you are reading my person statement, you might be questioning why I underlined his name TAN, simple answer, colors. A gaslighted person is barraged by colors, full throttle of the color spectrum, (RAINBOW) Now everyday people aren't just what the victim see’s due to the fact of what they are wearing. It’s repetitive now in my person's life,  people who are all in unison wearing the same colors no matter where my person goes, this also happens in the workforce. A non stop physiological factor used to scare and to change the gaslighted victim thoughts. I was married at the time.


Misinformation is detrimental in any society, example that is factual, the victim calls the police and in any situation the police officer should be well informed or it like walking into the dark, he is called to a scene and has misinformation due to misinformation. 911, may I help you, yes someone stuck a screwdriver and a hair net in my tire, dispatcher takes all the information, the victim at this point can't stay on the phone and tell them  the crimes that have been committed prior, the victim isn't believed, she is now crazy and it would take hours and hours to explain the abuse. A police officer respond, he doesn't know that gaslighting has occurred and years of abuse that has led up to the victim always being victimized. When you gaslight/misinformation on one police officer he is walking into a situation making him look misinformed. My person had a dog die at the age of 7, his name was Charlie. The victim only can go by what has happened in their life and not the misinformation that everyone is led to believe, you go by what has occurred in my person's life.


So getting back to my dog charlie I loved, who happened to die on Halloween. The police officer responds, I tell him what has happened and he is already under the assumption of what he was led to believe. I told him I didn't want any trouble and to please make a police report and I respect his job and police, he told me he would have to call his supervisor Charlie. The victim is victimized and not of the police officers fault. The police officer is now a victim.  The village you say it takes a village is victimized to the very law that upholds the law to keep the village/community from harm. The gaslighted victim is now under the impression that even law enforcement has been victimized and the victim again is felt leaving helpless. Cycle of abuse, can you imagine the outcome that would benefit any society living in that state of cycle?


The cycle has now hit you square in the face, who would believe you now? who in the hell would believe my person who had witness a foreign entity also affect the village/community?  My person is crazy. No I am not.
The following is true and factual to my best ability of my person remembering each encounter I have witnessed.  Not in order,


My grandmother died because a tube in her jugular was pulled out and she bled to death. My son since birth who was harmed was in the intensive care when he was 3 due to breathing problems and a male who was a doctor of Asian decent stated they would have to put a tube in my sons jugular. I never seen him again after that statement, I told another doctor what occurred, he said they don't do that.  I wasn't married at this time.


A male of middle eastern descent in his early 30’s stated in a cold calculating tone, my family believes I was evil. He had these eye that had no emotion. This happened while I lived in a Cold Garage. I wasn't married at this time.


English speaking man who is of middle eastern descent came up to me and told me the drug problem that will occur. I was married at this time. This happened in a hospital.


I wasn't married at this time. I lived in a 3 room apartment, Muslims lived down stairs, everywhere I walked in my small apartment whether it may be to use the bathroom or to get undressed, they made me aware with the sounds on the floor of where I would be on a continuum in my apartment.  I no longer even look at my own body when I take a shower, I would try to take showers in the dark or even keep my eyes closed while showering. IT WAS NON STOP!!!


They even had a birthday party on my 1st born grandchild birthday who I have never met and till this day I haven't met. My grandson's name is Justice, and a Muslim male dressed up as my oldest son that day walked out from the apartment to the bus stop and facing my direction looking up at my apartment window wearing the sunglasses of the movie from Arnold Schwarzenegger Terminator Judgment Day.  I have a deaf cousin who looks similar to Arnold. (Blasee) my mother's birth name. My deaf cousin his father worked at Ford.


The female Muslim would look out her window and smile at me when I would come home from work and soon as I came around the corner she knew I would be there.  After the continued noises done on purpose to make me feel my privacy was invaded non stop I started making noises back, they then move to the same apartment complex, in a different building.  While living there I endured more pain, in my spine, skull, feet. I wasn't married at this time.


During this time a male I overheard say when I placed my American Flag in my window, they had failed.  I believe that occurred during the Muslims living downstairs and the noises continued because the male who said that moved and the abuse continued.


After the Muslims moved, a male I believe to be homosexual moved in below my 3 room apartment and did the same technique, made noises and made them in the rooms I had entered in my small 3 room apartment, that includes the bathroom area. Continue abuse on my person. He also had a huge looking gaslamp that hung on his wall, and at one point walked out in his gray underwear in front of my 20 year old son. This male believed in the term coexisting. An incident occurred when the same male walked out of the front door while my person and my 20 year son sitting on the front porch look at my child with such disdain and a dirty look, I was shocked. An abuser looking at my son who has been hurt since birth and if the dirty look could have harmed my son, it would have.


After the bridge incident that occurred in the UK, I walked into a local gas station and knew something wasn't right, a middle eastern male was playing the lottery, he was celebrating the actions from what took place in the UK,  to celebrate killing made me feel sick and nervous. Who would believe me? I believe an American couple were killed that day. I wasn't married at this time.


During my separation of marriage and going through my divorce I stopped at my local gas station and again a younger middle eastern male approximately in his early twenties, said it was carpenter cabinet maker, at this time with all the gaslighting that my person has witness it took sometime for me to figure what that might of meant. He could be an actual carpenter cabinet maker or was he making a statement regards to the carpenter Jesus? or to any relations to my friends? husbands? I do not have an answer, all of the questions are plausible because Jesus was a carpenter, I have had friends whose husbands have been carpenters.


If you are reading this statement, is this how you become a sympathizer?  If a foreign entity is giving you the so called information that so many gave the my person so much misinformation and at this point do you want to go back for more information? I believe that could possibility be the case.


Another incident occurred in the same area of this gas station, I was going through a separation from my husband, I went for public assistance and a male in his late 50’s holding his yellow prayer beads just staring at me and moving his prayer beads through his finger tips. This was at county public building.
Another incident occurred where a little baby was almost smashed by a door I believe  they are from Palestine or from Pakistan. I ordered food at a restaurant and sat waiting for my food. I see a door open and a little baby come crawling out and then the door almost closes on the baby hurting the baby,  the young boy picks up the baby and places the baby in a shopping cart. The young kid starts pushing the shopping cart. You see to the average person who would witness something like that wouldn't have realized an incident that happened in my family that involved a shopping cart and a baby’s leg getting broken.  The restaurant was a pizza shop not Rubens.


At Rubens I was given old outdated meat with disgusting gravy. I didn't eat. These incidents are not gaslighting.


Because of being homeless I ended off living in a office. While living in an office with the ex husband gaslighter and across the street there was a Dunkin Donuts Shop, Imams showed up all dressed in white approximately 5 or 6, when I would look outside the office male men dressed with normal attire would bring their prayer rug and look towards the office of where I was living at and placed in under a tree and do Salalah (Prayer time) I thought how in the hell did they know where I was staying?


All my bill of rights were taken/stripped away from me and my children's. I was now a third class citizen. As I watched the lady dressed in black up to her eyes get into an uber at night and head to her mosque and for 2 years lived in a place where they had hung paper of some sort from there ceilings to see the movement above me. I now fear that a foreign entity can set up throughout our communities and go under the radar and they did.


In the same area, a male of middle eastern descent when I went into the store looking to buy an alcoholic beverage led me to kinky blue in a condescending way and at one point bend over to show me his behind.


And many more incidents.


I haven't in 19 years BE SEEN BY A LEGITIMATE  NON HARMING PHYSICIAN !


My last statement will be as follows.  I made 3 personal visit to the FBI OFFICE in Cleveland, Ohio during the 8 years. Called Washington FBI office 1 time and made 1 online Report.  I was turned away at my last visit to the FBI. I reported to law enforcement 6 different times.


My x-husband lied to the FBI and Law Enforcement.  I believe NO ONE IS ABOVE THE LAW! THE LAW IS PUT IN PLACE TO PROTECT YOUR RIGHTS AS A UNITED STATES BORN CITIZEN. I BELIEVE IN THE UNITED STATES CONSTITUTION AND WHAT IT STANDS FOR. NO ONE OR ENTITY IS TO HINDER YOUR RIGHTS/BILL OF RIGHTS AND NOT TO BREAK THE LAW AND TO FOLLOW THE LAW THAT ARE PUT IN PLACE TO PROTECT AMERICANS.  I HAVE NEVER COMMITTED A CRIME!


NO ONE HAS A RIGHT TO CAUSE A FOREIGN ENTITY TO SET UP SHOP OF WERE YOU RESIDE AND TO DELIBERATELY CAUSE MENTAL OR PHYSICAL HARM TO ANY AMERICAN AND TO CAUSE DOMESTIC TERRORISM IS TREASON'S.


THE ABOVE STATEMENT IS JUST A GLIMPSE OF WHAT HAS HAPPENED, LIKE A SMALL BOIE IN A LARGE OCEAN.


THIS DAY 15TH OF OCTOBER 2018 I IN THIS STATEMENT HAVE TOLD THE TRUTH AND NOT ALL INCIDENTS THAT MY PERSON HAS WITNESS IS WRITTEN IN THIS STATEMENT.


DATE 11/12/18


Ecclesiastes 7:3-18 King James Version (KJV)

Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.
The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth.
It is better to hear the rebuke of the wise, than for a man to hear the song of fools.
For as the crackling of thorns under a pot, so is the laughter of the fool: this also is vanity.
Surely oppression maketh a wise man mad; and a gift destroyeth the heart.
Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof: and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit.
Be not hasty in thy spirit to be angry: for anger resteth in the bosom of fools.
10 Say not thou, What is the cause that the former days were better than these? for thou dost not enquire wisely concerning this.
11 Wisdom is good with an inheritance: and by it there is profit to them that see the sun.
12 For wisdom is a defence, and money is a defence: but the excellency of knowledge is, that wisdom giveth life to them that have it.
13 Consider the work of God: for who can make that straight, which he hath made crooked?
14 In the day of prosperity be joyful, but in the day of adversity consider: God also hath set the one over against the other, to the end that man should find nothing after him.
15 All things have I seen in the days of my vanity: there is a just man that perisheth in his righteousness, and there is a wicked man that prolongeth his life in his wickedness.
16 Be not righteous over much; neither make thyself over wise: why shouldest thou destroy thyself ?
17 Be not over much wicked, neither be thou foolish: why shouldest thou die before thy time?
18 It is good that thou shouldest take hold of this; yea, also from this withdraw not thine hand: for he that feareth God shall come forth of them all.